1st entry

The past 10 years have been a roller coaster struggle with my weight loss. I met my husband 10 years ago, I think I weighed about 130lbs. I looked great. But you know how it goes, you get comfortable, you get a less active job and the pounds start piling on. I was a waitress then, constantly on my feet. I've had several jobs since then, none as active as that. I'm currently a processing clerk/phlebotosmist at the hospital. I spend probably 50% of my shift sitting at a desk. Its not a physically demanding job, but it is a mentally demanding job. Often when I get home I'm exhausted. I am fine to sit on the recliner until it's time for bed.
Two years ago I looked in the mirror disgusted with what I had become. I was at my highest 166lbs. (I know that I am not obese by any means and that many people have much more weight to lose)This isn't healthy for me. I went from a size 5 jeans to a size 14 in just a couple of years. I decided to join weight watchers. It was the first time I had really "dieted". I was successful. I got down to 144lbs in 3 months. It felt great, everyone noticed the weight loss and I was happy. Happiness for me leads to rewarding myself with treats. All the delicious treats I had deprived myself in the last 3 months I now felt I earned as if I was a dog that perfected a trick. A year later I put 10 of those pounds back on. Two years later it was all back.
A few months ago I joined a dietbet. I bet $30.00  that I could lose 4% of my body weight in 4 weeks. 6.6lbs. Piece of cake! It was not a piece of cake. Yes I did it, it was down to the very last day that I was in jeopardy of not winning, but I did it, my hard work paid off! I found the bet motivating. Not knowing how much I could potentially win was awesome. The pot was huge, luckily and also not luckily most of the people hit their goal so the profit was only 11.42, but it was a profit nonetheless and I was down 6.8lbs total. Awesome.
That brings us to today, 3 months later, I've been ok. I've rewarded myself with food again. But I didn't gain it all back. I'm now at 161.8lbs. I've started another dietbet, with some family and friends in it this time. I've also signed back up for weight watchers. The goal of this blog is to keep myself accountable. Share my progress and hopefully get motivation and support.
I know my problem is my sweet tooth and lack of self control around food. I just have to do one day at a time, and realize that once I hit my goal it is not something that will just stay that way forever. It's something that everyday I will have to work at to keep healthy and thin. I will get there.